Baby Raizada

Khushi sat there, completely lifeless. It had been hours. One, two, maybe even three; she didn't know. Her breathing at regular speed but she didn't move a bit. She just stared off straight, zoned off.

Arnav came in with a tray of food and looked at his wife. She wasn't his cheerful, fun loving, crazy wife, but rather his soulless wife. He went in and sat beside Khushi, her not even realizing he came in.

"Khushi, it's time to eat."

Arnav tore some roti and dipped it in the daal and looked at Khushi. She hadn't moved, nor paid attention to him.

"Khushi?"

Khushi remained silent.

"Khushi," Arnav called out, his voice cracking a little bit.

Still silent.

"Khushi? Khushi please eat something. You'll die if you don't eat."

No reply.

"Khushi please. If something happens to you then… then I'll be all alone."

Khushi took in a sharp breath. She looked at Arnav and opened her mouth and let Arnav feed her. Eventually she finished and Arnav gave her some water to drink. He called in HP and made him take the tray away. Khushi went back to her soulless self.

"Khushi? Khushi please stop hurting yourself. By hurting yourself, you're hurting me."

Khushi smiled, looking down at her nails, tears forming in her eyes. "As if I haven't hurt you enough," she bit her lip.

Arnav shook his head and held his wife and she burst into tears immediately. She cried and cried and Arnav didn't let go of her once. Once she was done crying, Arnav wiped her tears away and kissed her forehead.

"Khushi forget about it. Forget it ever even happened."

"How? Huh? Kaise bul jau? Arnav, I was 6 months pregnant!"

"Sweetheart, I know-"

"I was this close- this close," she said, gesturing with her fingers. "I was this close to being a mom- this close to giving you a child and I…" Khudhi burst into tears again.

"Khushi, don't blame yourself for anything. We have to move on from this-"

"Par kaise?! For the first time, I was pregnant. And I lost my first child? Just like that?"

"Khushi, listen to me and listen to me very carefully. You will forget about this. Nothing EVER happened-"

"Arnav-"

"No. That's the end of that."

Khushi looked into Arnav's eyes. "I'll never be able to forget it."

Arnav knew she wouldn't let go of it so easily, so he didn't say anything. A few days passed and he didn't say anything. After a couple of weeks, he tried again, but no dice. Months, even a year passed, but nothing.

Arnav had given up on it and Khushi felt alone. It was only her and HP in the house when Arnav would go to work. She needed company, she needed attention - she needed love.

Khushi had gone to the hospital for her regular checkup. Every time she came to the hospital, it brought back bad memories of that day. How she was being too stubborn with Arnav and went out and when she was going down the stairs, she had tripped and fell. Arnav rushed her to the hospital but they couldn't save the baby.

While Khushi thought she was getting her regular checkups, the reality was that Arnav was having the doctor check if she could get pregnant again. A while after Khushi left, the doctor called Arnav and told her she could conceive again.

Arnav was happy and he wanted to give her what she desired the most - a child, at least, that was what he thought. She seemed so down after they lost their child… the child that Arnav didn't even care about in the first place. He remembered that day very clearly.

*Flashback* - MATURE CONTENT

"Arnav, please let go of me," Khushi screamed.

Arnav had forced her to marry him because he wanted to ruin her father. There was no doubt that Khushi was beautiful, but he needed to do what he needed to do, by blackmailing her and making her marry him.

In the beginning, he could care less about her and Khushi kept her distance from him and hated him with a passion. But as time passed, the two started to feel attracted to each other. One day Arnav had come home, really pissed. Work had made him really mad and he came in, throwing his bag. Khushi wondered what was wrong and when she approached him, he looked at her with his raged eyes. He just looked at her, and stared her down. She was in a red sari and it was attracting him a lot. He didn't even think and then she yelled out and told him to stop.

"Arnav please! Get off of me!"

Arnav wasn't listening at all and kept pulling her in. He was mad and he didn't think of anything.

"Arnav! Arnav please," Khushi cried.

Khushi's yelling was pissing him off and he got angrier. He pulled on Khushi's sari and left her in just her undergarments. He leaned her up against the wall and forced himself on her.

"Arnav! Arnav stop, please," she cried.

He nibbled on her neck and Khushi kept hitting him on his chest, trying to move him away, but Arnav being the strong man he is, she couldn't move him a bit. Arnav covered her lips with his and held onto her face, not letting her move away. Khushi squirmed and tried to push him away, but had no luck.

When he traveled back down and bit her neck, Khushi screamed.

"Aah! Arnav please stop! Let go of me!"

But he wouldn't. He just needed to get his mind off of work and he just wanted to love his wife.

What the, he thought. Love?

He let go and looked at Khushi. She was crying, no doubt, and she was scared for her life. Arnav noticed something from the corner of his eyes and looked at her neck. He had bitten her so hard that she was slightly bleeding on her neck.

He looked back at her and Khushi looked at him. Instead of seeing anger in his eyes, she saw a sweetness in his chocolate brown eyes. Instead of hate, she saw love in his eyes, his beautiful mesmerizing eyes.

Arnav kissed her on her lips and Khushi remained still. It was different and more passionate than before. Her eyes drifted shut and she began to respond. She was kissing him, kissing someone for the first time in her life.

The two went at it and continued to do so, removing every bit of string off their body, completely naked in the end. Khushi was nervous and wanted it to stop. She didn't have feelings for him… did she?

Arnav couldn't wait anymore and entered her and Khushi screamed from the sudden move. Once she calmed down a bit, Arnav thrusted slowly and Khushi screamed from the pain. She couldn't take it and held onto him, trying to push him away at the same time.

She didn't love him and nor did he love her. This has to stop, Khushi thought. This is wrong… but why does it feel so right?

Arnav paced up and instead of Khushi gripping from pain, she gripped on to control herself. She was scratching his back so much, she had cut through his skin with her nails.

That went on for the rest of the night, the two never realizing that they weren't protected.

*End of Flashback*

Arnav got home and saw his wife in the kitchen. She was getting dinner ready and Khushi had already known he had arrived before he came in through the door. She faintly smiled at him and he smiled back and went over to her.

He had to get that full, happy smile back on his wife's lips. It disappeared and all he would get were faint smiles, ever since the loss of their child. He knew now that she could get pregnant again and now all he needed to do was to set the mood.

Arnav went behind her and his hands snaked around her waist and held her. Khushi was surprised, especially when he rested his chin on her shoulder.

"Hey Khushi. What you making?"

"Not much. I decided to make some kheer, and don't worry, I made sugarless kheer for you."

"Thanks wifey."

Arnav kissed her cheek and then trailed down to her neck. Khushi's breathing raced up and her chest heaved, her eyes shut. Although Arnav and her were on better terms than before, they were only friends. Just plain friends.

"Arnav," Khushi whispered out.

"I'll go upstairs and change. See you at the table," he whispered and went off upstairs.

Khushi watched as Arnav went upstairs and disappeared. Khushi caught her breath and sighed. It was a good thing all the workers were sent home already.

After twenty minutes, Arnav came down and Khushi was already at the table, everything already set out. Arnav sat down and Khushi placed food onto his plate.

Khushi sat down and was about to get her plate ready, when Arnav stopped her. She scrunched her eyebrows and Arnav placed more food onto his plate.

"We'll eat together," he said softly.

"But Arnav-"

"Please Khushi?"

Khushi was surprised, again. "But-"

"Please?"

Khushi lightly smiled. "Okay."

Arnav dipped some roti into the daal and fed Khushi.

"Thank you," Khushi said.

"Now you will feed me."

"Wha… what?"

Arnav just looked at her with a simple expression. Khushi faintly smiled and then dipped the roti into the daal and fed Arnav. He was more than happy and accepted it and smiled at her.

They continued to eat and then Khushi put some kheer in a bowl and fed Arnav. He fed her as well, Khushi now used to sugarless kheer because of him, and Khushi smiled, accepting it every time. Seeing her smile lightly made him think back to the first time he ever saw her smile.

*Flashback*

It was at a party that was held for him and his wife as a newlywed couple. Khushi was asked to dance and at first she disagreed but later on she danced with some of the ladies and then with the background dancers, and Arnav had noticed how happy she was, smiling from end to end, which he was never able to do nor had ever seen in their few months of marriage so far.

*End of flashback*

"Arnav?"

Arnav snapped out of it and took in the spoon of kheer in his mouth. He realized that Khushi had taken seconds and she was removing some kheer that fell on the side of the bowl. She used her finger to wipe it off and before she could clean it away with a tissue, Arnav held the hand. She looked at him, confused, when Arnav took in the finger in his mouth and slowly licked the kheer of her finger.

Khushi felt butterflies in her stomach as she felt Arnav's tongue on her finger. Her eyes were wide and she looked at him, while Arnav was calm and looked Khushi straight in the eye, with a gleam in his eyes, as he licked it off.

There was some kheer on the side of his lips and he used her finger to wipe it off, her finger practically rubbing his lips and Khushi took in a sharp breath, feeling his soft lips. He put her finger back in his mouth and Khushi gulped, feeling Arnav's tongue on her finger again.

When he let go, Khushi just looked away and held her finger close. Arnav looked at her and decided to make it feel easier for her.

"Wifey, I'm done."

Khushi looked at him. "You sure? But-"

"I'm done."

Khushi looked down.

"I'll be in our room," and he got up to wash up.

Khushi watched as he left and felt her heart race up. She'd never felt this before, nev- but she did. The day her and Arnav had sex, was the very first time she had felt anything like that.

*~*

*MATURE CONTENT AGAIN*

Khushi took a nice warm shower and came out with her robe on. When she came out, she noticed the bunch of candles all over the room. It was beautiful and then she looked at the figure by the poolside door - Arnav.

He turned and looked at her and she simply looked at him. He walked over to her and Khushi remained still. He was shirtless and was in his shorts. Arnav paused inches away from her face and Khushi leaned up against the wardrobe. He simply looked down at her and Khushi looked away, her breathing pacing up.

Khushi's hair came in the way and Arnav removed it and tucked it behind. His touch was so warm to her now cold flesh, she shuddered and her breathing was faster.

Arnav made her face him and looked into her eyes. Khushi looked back, puzzled, and saw something in his eyes. It was love, passion, and desire all throughout his eyes and Khushi looked at him questioningly. Arnav couldn't take it anymore and closed the distance between them.

Her lips were just like before. Soft, and very sweet, so sweet that it was enough for all the sugar he couldn't have all his life. Khushi was still and didn't respond, until Arnav felt a nip at his lower lip. She was responding, kissing him back and her lips parted, allowing his tongue through.

Arnav let go and rested his forehead on Khushi's. Khushi held the hand he was using to caress her face and looked up at Arnav.

"Arnav… I love you."

Arnav looked at his wife. Three words. Three simple words from his wife's mouth was all that made his heart flutter. She was serious and really meant it.

"I love you, too, Khushi."

They kissed again and Arnav didn't have any control left in him. His hands traveled to her waist as he moved down to her neck and sucked on it and softly kissed it. Khushi's hand traveled up to his hair and she held onto it as Arnav sucked on her flesh.

When he looked back at her, Khushi saw the love and desire in his eyes. Arnav kissed her again and as he did, he untied the knot to her robe. He made them slowly walk back to the bed and he sat down and made Khushi sit on his lap.

Arnav went back to her neck and sucked on her flesh and Khushi ruffled his hair. He went slowly over to her shoulder and kissed it and slowly removed the robe off her shoulder. It slipped and hung and Arnav kissed her throat and went to her other shoulder and kissed it and removed the robe off her shoulder.

It hung loose and came down , revealing her back. Khushi looked at Arnav again and he kissed her again. It was short and he cupped her breasts in his hands and kissed them. Khushi felt an electric shock run up her and she pulled in Arnav closer.

He kissed them, bit them, and sucked them and Khushi squirmed to it all. Arnav let her catch up with her breath while he stroked her back. She somewhat managed too and then she kissed him. Feeling his hand on her back, it was hard for Khushi to keep a steady beat of her heart. She placed her hands on Arnav's chest for support and felt Arnav's heartbeat at an irregular pace too. She broke away and looked at him and he moved her hair aside and tucked it behind her ear.

Khushi didn't know what took over her and she nibbled on Arnav's neck. Arnav loved what she was doing to him and was happy about the fact that she was responding. He slowly moved her hands to her side and entirely removed the robe off of her.

Arnav moved back, making Khushi let go of him. Now he had a full view of Khushi's body. He looked at it and wondered why he never noticed it before the first time they had sex. She was beautiful, inside, outside, covered, and stark naked.

Arnav made Khushi lie down and went between her legs, on top of her. Khushi looked straight into Arnav's eyes and he looked into hers. Both were breathing at an unsteady pace, their brains shut down and wired out.

Arnav leaned in and kissed her on her lips softly. Khushi kissed him back and loved how slow and passionate he was being. He trailed down to her neck and moved his hands to her arms and extended them out to the sides and moved his fingers between hers and pinned them back, clenching onto her hands.

Arnav kissed her neck and nibbled on it, going from one side to the other, kissing her throat, and Khushi let out a hushed moan from her throat, practically a little growl.

It turned Arnav on and he traveled down to her breasts and teased her. Khushi felt helpless, unable to do anything because he had her hands pinned back. She wanted to run her fingers through his brown, soft hair and pull him in closer. She didn't care if his strong hard body was over her petite figure with all his weight. She just wanted him.

When Arnav returned to her neck, Khushi took in a sharp breath. "Arnav," she whispered out.

Khushi didn't recognize her own voice, but it had turned Arnav on. He went wilder, taking in bites of her neck and nibbling on it and Khushi loved it.

"Arnav," she whispered out again.

Arnav loved that she was responding and he could now do what he wanted. Arnav removed his shorts and boxers and in one swift move, he entered her. Khushi let out a gasp and breathed unsteadily. Arnav waited till she calmed down and she looked up at Arnav, her lips quivering.

"Ar… nav…."

Arnav kissed her again and moved all over her, thrusting slowly. Khushi thought her body was floating midair and she loved the feeling she was getting.

"Arnav," she whispered.

Arnav acted more passionate and Khushi tightened her grip on his hands.

"Arnav… more…."

Arnav understood and quickened his pace. Now Khushi felt she was entirely up in the air, her body arching  up a little bit.

"Aah… Arnav," she moaned out a whisper. "Arnav… please…."

Arnav stopped and looked at Khushi. She had her eyes shut and she was breathing really fast. She slowly opened her eyes and looked up at him.

"Arnav… please… fast…."

Arnav scrunched his eyebrows.

"Please Arnav… go really… really… fast."

Arnav nodded and kissed her and went in and out of her with no control. Her moaning was like music to his ears and he had no control.

"Arnav… Arnav… aah! Arnav," she chanted.

With every swift move, Khushi's grip would tighten on Arnav's hand. She had never felt so loved in her life. She wanted him close and she wrapped her legs around his waist and pushed him in further into her and Khushi felt like she was on cloud nine.

"Aah! Arnav… Arnav… aah… Ar- aah… Arnav," she chanted.

When it was all over, Arnav looked down at her and Khushi looked at him. She smiled lightly, still trying to catch her breath. Arnav knew that was all he could get now and he rested his head on her chest and shut his eyes to relax, his hands holding her arms.

Khushi placed her hand through his hair and ran it through, the other hand caressing his cheek and she shut her eyes, feeling loved even though he wasn't doing anything  but getting rest.

*~*

Khushi woke up to sunlight pouring down on her face. She opened her eyes and felt a weight on her. It was Arnav, his head still on her chest, his hands still on her arms, but his body had shifted onto the bed, and he had one leg in between her's and Khushi could feel his manhood on her leg. Khushi's hands were still in his hair and his cheek and she smiled. She looked at the time and realized they had only slept for two hours. That made her smile more and she looked at Arnav. She ran her fingers through his hair and leaned her head on his. She finally had someone who loved her, who she loved, and could feel one with.

Arnav moved a bit and Khushi looked down at him. Arnav squirmed and then his eyes opened slowly. He looked around and then he looked down at Khushi's chest and then at her face. Khushi smiled at Arnav and Arnav just gazed at her. Her full smile was back and she was smiling end to end, her eyes bright and gleaming with happiness.

"Good morning Arnav," she whispered, still smiling.

"Good morning… you're… really happy."

Khushi looked down. "I guess," she blushed.

Arnav was confused. He thought he would see her smile like this when she would later find out that she's pregnant. Not because of him.

"What's wrong," Khushi asked, stroking her thumb on his cheek.

He looked at her thumb and then at her. Then he looked down and got up, sitting up.

"Arnav, what's wrong," Khushi asked, sitting up, covering herself up with the duvet.

"You're not supposed to be smiling."

"What?"

"I mean you're not supposed to be smiling till you find out you're pregnant."

"I'm pregnant?"

"Not yet... but you will be."

Khushi remembered the night before and how they didn't use a condom. But instead of thinking of her being pregnant, she thought about their love-making session and she blushed.

"You're… blushing," Arnav asked.

"… yeah…."

"But… you're supposed to be happy then, not now."

"Why wouldn't I be? The man I love made love to me last night."

"You love me?"

Khushi blushed and nodded, but then her face got serious and she looked away.

"What's wrong sweetheart," Arnav asked, cupping her face.

"You… you don't… you don't love me, do you?"

Arnav sighed. "Before I didn't. But during your months of pregnancy, I realized how special you are and fell in love with you. I don't just wanna be a business tycoon, but I also want someone at my side who'll love me… and that's you. Khushi, I love you. I love you more than anything."

"Really?"

He nodded and Khushi hugged him. Arnav ran his fingers through her hair and kissed the top of her head. "I love you, Khushi."

"I love you, too, Arnav."

Khushi felt his back and chuckled.

"What is it?"

"At least I didn't scratch your back this time."

Arnav chuckled as well and both remembered back to the day after they first had sex.

*Flashback*

Khushi woke up and she felt sore. She looked around and noticed that she was naked. She remembered immediately what had happened the night before and instantly covered herself.

Arnav came out of the bathroom and Khushi got scared and pulled on the duvet more. He smirked and sat down beside her and Khushi inched away.

"Stay away from me."

"Why should I?"

"You… you… you raped me," she cried.

Khushi cried, covering her face and Arnav got pissed and moved her hands away.

"Shut up," Arnav said. "Stop crying!"

Khushi got scared and stopped, her lips shaking.

"And don't say I raped you - I ALMOST raped you."

"What's the difference! Rape is rape!"

"No. Rape is when you're forced. I nearly forced you, that is, until you enjoyed it."

"I did not!"

Arnav smirked a crooked smirk. "Yes you did." He took his shirt off and Khushi got scared. He faced his back to her and pointed at it. "Look at what you did to my back."

There were scratches all over his back. Khushi moved her hands to it and she remembered the night before. She was holding onto his back and she kept running her fingers on his back, scratching it.

"I…" but Khushi was at a loss of words.

Arnav faced her. "See what you did to me? You scratched my back up and started chanting."

"Chanting?"

"Yes."

Khushi remembered the night before, trying to remember the parts where she fazed out and remembered how she was moaning his name and asking him for more and holding onto him. Just remembering it made her blush hard.

"Ah, now that was half as red as how you were last night."

Khushi looked away. "You're terrible."

"At what?"

"At having a heart."

That got Arnav mad and before he could do anything, his phone rang and while he spoke on the phone, Khushi had gone into the shower and Arnav was still mad and he left for work.

*End of Flashback*

"Am I still terrible," Arnav asked.

Khushi looked up at him. "Definitely not."

The two looked at each other for a moment and then kissed each other playfully.